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IF You STAY hits bookstores! And a contest!

8 Apr

Hey guys!!

It’s finally here… the day that one of my dreams comes true!!  My novel, IF YOU STAY, will hit bookstore shelves!!  Eeeepppp!


Yes, IF YOU STAY has already been out in the e-book world for a year.  It has made numerous bestseller lists (NYT, USA TODAY, Amazon…) but until today, it hasn’t been on actual shelves.

But that changes today!!  Eeeeepppp!!  To celebrate, my publisher Forever (Grand Central Publishing) is hosting a contest.

If you see my IF YOU STAY while you’re out and about, snap a picture of it and tweet it with the hashtag #IfYouStay.  You’ll be entered to win an awesome prize pack of books from Forever.  :)

Since I’m in the middle of moving, I would LOVE to see pictures of my books on shelves.  I won’t have the time this week to go out and try to find them– so I would love to see your pictures!

I hope everyone has a fabulous day!

All of Court’s Men: Alex from Confessions of an Alli Cat

17 Mar




“You know what they say…a happy vagina is a happy woman. Well, they might not say that, but they should.”—Alli

It’s Alli Cat week on All of Court’s Men, featuring Alex Harris!

I have to say… of all of my books aside from IF YOU STAY, Confessions of an Alli Cat is the one that I get the most comments about… the most questions of When is there going to be a sequel!??

Alli Cat is unlike any of my other books.  It’s sexy, funny and light-hearted… not emotional, sexy and angsty.   And while I love me some angst, sometimes, a good light-hearted book is just what the doctor ordered.  And if you’re needing to laugh, Alli Cat can do that for you.

Check out an excerpt: 

I decide against wearing stockings or even panties today.  I can’t believe I’m doing this, but I can’t have anything touching my girl.  I just can’t.  If I weren’t in so much pain, I would feel naughty for going to work sans panties.

As it is, I just feel grumpy. When I get in my car, I carefully arrange Brazilian Baldy so that she’s not rubbing against my seat.  My phone buzzes. It’s Sara.

That’s your vagina talking, not you.  You love me.  You have to.  Because I know all of your secrets.

I sigh.  She has a point.

Fine.  My vagina hates you, I answer.

I don’t even have time to stop and get coffee on the way to work, which definitely doesn’t bode well for my day.

As I breeze past Taylor, I growl, “I need coffee.”

She takes one look at my face and scrambles to her feet, presumably to find me some.  I love that girl.  She knows me so well.  And also, she doesn’t want to put up with me sans caffeine.  I know that much is true because I don’t want to put up with me sans caffeine either.

“Alli,” she calls from behind me, but I ignore her.  I’m so not in the mood for anything right now until I have imbibed at least two cups.

“I’m not in the mood yet,” I call back as I open my office door.

I’m not usually such a bitch, but a raw crotch will do that to a person.

I stalk into my office and stop.

Alex is sitting casually on the couch, his legs propped up while he reads the Wall Street Journal.  I stare.  He glances up. He’s got two cups from a local coffee house sitting next to him.  He is wearing black pinstripe slacks and a white button-up.  He looks fresh and handsome and it’s apparent that he is certainly not suffering from a raw crotch.

And holy shit.  Sara was right.  It definitely depends on who is wearing the button-up as to how boring it is.

This white-button up is not boring at all.  When it is stretched across two strong shoulders like that, how could it be boring?

Alex smiles.

It’s a beautiful smile that makes the corners of his gorgeous eyes crinkle.

“I took a chance and guessed that you like Kona coffee,” he says cheerfully, handing me one of the cups.  “Sugar and cream.  I’m sorry if it’s not right.”

“Bless you,” I say as I grab the cup greedily from his fingers. I restrain myself from gulping it down in two swallows. Instead, I sip it like a lady.  A lady who has been wandering in the desert for two weeks and is ready to die from thirst, that is.

Alex laughs.

“Bad morning?”

I lower the cup.  If I admit it, he might think I can’t handle personal stress after all.  And I can’t tell him about my vag problems.

“Um.  Just busy already,” I tell him.

“Well, I won’t keep you.  I just wanted to tell you that I’ll be sitting in your staff meeting today.  I just want to get a feel for your department.  No big thing.  I just didn’t want you to feel surprised.”

I smile.  I’m feeling gracious now that the caffeine is circulating through my veins.

“It’s fine. I expected that you would join us today and obviously, you are welcome any time.  Is there anything in particular you want us to cover?”

Alex shakes his sexy head.

“No.  Just go on with business as usual. If I have questions, I’ll ask.”

He picks up his paper and takes his leave.  He is barely gone before I buzz for Taylor.  She walks in and I smile pleasantly.

“Is there any reason why you didn’t mention as I walked past you that our new boss was waiting for me in my office?”

She smiles back, like the saucy wench that she is.

“Yes.  You said that you weren’t in the mood for it yet.”

I take four deep breaths and mentally pick up my stapler and throw it at her smiling head.  She smiles wider, as if she knows my thoughts.

“In the future,” I say calmly, still smiling, “Please let me know when Alex Harris is waiting for me, even if I say that I’m not in the mood to hear it.”

She nods cheerfully.  “Will do, boss.  Should I also always tell you if you have lipstick on your teeth?”

I nod back.  “Of course.”

She smiles.  “You do.”


I’ve had women message me and tell me that they were laughing so hard while reading Alli Cat in bed that their hubbies kicked them out of bed.  haha.  So if you’re in the mood for a laugh, you totally should check Alli Cat out.  And it’s Monday… so what better day for a laugh?

Plus, Confessions of an Alli Cat will be $.99 all week.

You can find it on Amazon and Barnes and Noble.  

Have a good week, everyone!  Stay sexy!  ;)


There WILL be a sequel to Confessions of an Alli Cat.  I just don’t know when that will be.  Hopefully this summer!

When Life Doesn’t Hand you a HEA

28 Feb

Back when I wrote IF YOU STAY, I received a lot of e-mail from readers.

Most of it was amazing and inspiring from readers who had also known addiction, or knew of someone who had.

However, some of it was from disgruntled readers who said that my story wasn’t realistic.  That if someone took drugs to disappear into oblivion, then chances are that they were, in fact, addicted and that I was sending out the wrong message of rainbows and butterflies with my book.

If you read my work, you already know that I’m a big believer in Happily-Ever-Afters.  I mean, people read fiction to escape from reality.  Why in the world would I want to depress them with a book that ended in any way other than happily?

When I wrote IF YOU STAY, that was the reality of my “Pax”.  He wasn’t an addict at that time.

Unlike fiction though, life continues to evolve and change.  A book, after it ends, won’t stray from the final storyline.  That HEA will remain for all of eternity.

Life, however, does change. And sometimes, the changes aren’t for the better.

I’ve always said that I wouldn’t reveal who I based Pax Tate on.  He didn’t want me to, and so I won’t.  I never will.  Readers have guessed that it was my husband, but I can tell you that it is not.  It is someone else that I love, someone very close to me.  

And unfortunately, he has descended into the world of addiction.

At first, like Pax Tate, he was a user, not an addict.  He wanted to disappear into oblivion, into a place where he didn’t care about anything.  He realized what he was doing and I sent him to rehab to be on the safe side.  All seemed to be fine.

But  he started using again and this time, the outcome hasn’t been good.  He’s throughly addicted.  If you follow me on social media, you might have noticed that I haven’t been online a lot.  I’ve been preoccupied with this horrible issue.  When I am online, I usually act normally, because that is my coping mechanism.  I’m a very private person and I don’t tend to advertise my private life.

However, I do have some things that I want to say.

I’m writing this so 1) you know why I’ve been fairly absent online, 2) to address reader concerns that I wasn’t depicting reality with my storyline in IF YOU STAY and 3)  to flip the bird at addiction itself.  

I’m here to tell you that anyone can be an addict.  It doesn’t matter if you’re white, black or purple, if you’re rich, poor, or middle-class.  Addiction knows no discrimination and it knows no bounds.

We live in a world where high schoolers are offered Ecstasy in the hallways for $10 a pill and where they can get heroin as easily as they can get sweet-tarts.  It’s sickening, saddening, and devastating, and it is the reality of our day and age.

However, THIS is our reality too:

The human spirit is created to thrive, to fight and to eventually overcome.  We’re all born with an innate sense to fight to survive, to fight what oppresses us, to come out on top, and to be healthy, happy, and strong.


With today’s support networks, groups, medications, doctors and therapies, WE CAN BEAT YOU.  Anyone who is addicted to a substance and wants to fight it, can.  Anyone who wants to fight it can WIN.  All they have to do is set their mind to it, be strong and fight it.

Will it be easy?

Hell no.

Is it worth it?

Hell YES.

All of us, every one of us, deserves to be happy, healthy and strong.

With that in mind, I’d like to ask for your prayer.  I’m a huge believer in prayer, and I believe that the more people who pray for one thing, the better.  The more voices, the better God can hear.  

Can you please say a prayer for my “Pax”?  He desperately needs prayer if he’s going to beat addiction.  He’s strong, but addiction can level the strongest person.  In order to beat it, you have to be strong, determined and have God’s help.

If you can pray for him, for God’s help, I’d be eternally grateful.

In closing, let me just say that the fictional Pax Tate will forever have his Happy Ending. He is happy and strong, and living a perfect life with his wife Mila.

My real-life Pax might be struggling now, in the most difficult struggle of his life, but I have full faith that he will come through it. He will overcome it.  That’s what human beings are designed to do.

No matter how hard or difficult something seems at any one time, always know that a Happily-Ever-After is always possible, whether it is “REALISTIC” or not.  The power to change lies within us, and no one else.

If you are a reader who contacted me about IF YOU STAY not ending in a realistic way, please know that I heard you and I respect your concerns.  I still stand behind my notion that not all users are addicts, but I do fully believe that if a user continues to use, he/she will eventually become addicted.  Just as I believe that addicts can overcome it if they choose to fight.

If you are an addict or struggle with using, or if you know someone who does, please ask for help.  Contact a support group, go to your doctor, tell your parent.  JUST GET HELP.  Please.

And if you’re a drug dealer, whose sole purpose in life is to addict our children to toxic substances for the simple reason that you want to line your pockets with drug money, you can go to hell.

Thank you.

17 Dec

In February, I released a book called IF YOU STAY.


I had no expectations for it.  I simply wrote the story that my heart told me to write.

When it hit the top 100 on Amazon, I was shocked.  When it hit the top 10, I screamed. When it hit the top 5, I cried.  When it made the New York Times and USA Today Bestseller’s lists, I didn’t even know what to do.  I was beside myself.  And then, to top it all off, it was picked up by an imprint of Hachette in an amazing deal negotiated by the world’s best agent.  I was assigned an amazing editor at Forever (the imprint of Grand Central/Hachette) and a publicity team.

My whole life changed.  This past year has been a whirlwind- a dream!- and I didn’t think that there was anything left for IF YOU STAY to give me. But I was wrong.

Today, I learned that it made Amazon’s list of top 100 books of 2013.

It made a list of top 100 books for the WHOLE YEAR on Amazon.  The. Whole. Year.


I’m just….speechless.  And I’m a writer, so that doesn’t happen often.

Thank you, thank you, for reading and loving IF YOU STAY.  Thank you for being with me on this amazing journey.  You will never ever know how much I appreciate you.

Happy Book Birthday: Before We Fall

3 Dec

Happy, happy book birthday to BEFORE WE FALL!!

It’s live today!  After months and months of waiting.  Woohooooo!


Sometimes before we fall . . . we fly.

One dark moment was all it took to turn twenty-four-year-old Dominic Kinkaide’s world black. On the night of his high school graduation, a single incident changed him forever, and he became a hardened man-famous in the eyes of the world, but tortured inside. Now all he cares about is losing himself in the roles that he plays.

At twenty-three years old, Jacey Vincent doesn’t realize how much her father’s indifference has affected her. She is proof that sometimes it isn’t one specific moment that wrecks a person, but an absence of moments. She tries to find acceptance in the arms of men to fill the void-a plan that has worked just fine for her, until she meets Dominic.

When jaded Dominic and strong-willed Jacey are thrown together, the combination of his secrets and her issues turns their attraction into the perfect storm. It could change their lives for good-if it doesn’t tear them both apart . . .


So I just looked and there are already a few reviews on Amazon!  Woot!  Reviews are saying this about Before We Fall:

“Before We Fall, the third book in Courtney Cole’s Beautifully Broken series, is an absolutely beautiful and phenomenal read!”

“Dominic Kinkaide is the Book Addict Mumma’s TOP BOOK BOYFRIEND of 2013.”

“I loooooove Courtney Cole’s words. And I looooove Dominic Kinkaide.”

Oh my.  I’m blushing now.  Thank you so much for taking the time to write such kind things!!!

I’m so so glad that you are enjoying Dominic.  I was SO hoping that you would.  When I wrote this story, I knew that Dominic was going to be a polarizing character.  I knew some would hate him, but I was hoping that SO MANY MORE would love him.

So, now that the story is out, I’d like to run a little promotion.  If you’re a person who loved Dom, please let me know.   Tweet, Facebook or blog your favorite quote from the book and don’t forget to tag me.

I will run this contest for two weeks.   And the winner?   The winner will get a $100 Tiffany gift card… just in time for Christmas!  :)

Tiffany Gift Card

Second prize will be a set of Beautifully Broken signed books.

So, to recap, ways to enter are: 

1.  Tweet, Facebook or blog your favorite quote from the book.  Please include my name and the book’s name in your post.  

2. Like my Facebook page.

3.  Post links to your Amazon review of Before We Fall on Facebook or Twitter.  

4.  Follow me on Twitter. 

5. Follow Inkslinger PR

You can use THIS RAFFLECOPTER to enter.  

Easy, right?  Word of mouth is by FAR the best way to advertise a book.  So if you love Before We Fall, I can sure use your help in letting others know it.

I hope that you’re all having a wonderful amazing day.  I’m thankful for each and every one of you.  Let me leave you with this… I know I’ve shared it before, but I just love it.

Bad boys do it better

(And Dominic Kinkaide is the baddest of them all)

Be the First to Fall!

25 Nov

Happy Monday!

So, I’m counting down the days until BEFORE WE FALL releases.   (8 more days!!!!!)

This week, I want to do a bunch of fun contests to help pass the time and keep me from going insane while I wait.  (I know, I know.  Too late for that….)

Besides that important reason, there’s this:

Before We Fall galleys

That’s a stack of BEFORE WE FALL galleys that my awesome publisher sent me.  So obviously, I need to do some giveaways.

So, I’m declaring this week, BE THE FIRST TO FALL week.

Every day, I’m going to post a graphic teaser on my Facebook page (which you can find HERE).  All you have to do is share the graphic on your Twitter or FB page (make sure to tag me), then go enter the Rafflecopter, which you can find HERE.  Easy breezy.

Our graphic today is one of my faves.  :)



All you have to do is share and enter to win.  :)

Okay.  To celebrate BE THE FIRST TO FALL WEEK, there’s a pre-release review tour going on– and each blog is giving away an e-copy of Before We Fall.  So, definitely go check out what these awesome bloggers think about Before We Fall… and enter to win on their blogs, as well!

Anyway, this is enough to kick off BE THE FIRST TO FALL WEEK. :)   Stay tuned– there will be more every day.  I’m so so excited about this book!
Have a great week!!

Questions about UNTIL WE BURN

23 Nov

Young man with perfect facial hair and sensual lips of a lady


Hey guys!

Sooooooo.  I’ve received a ton of questions about my novella, UNTIL WE BURN.   So, I figured I’d do a little blog post to answer them all in one spot.  :)

1.  Can I read UNTIL WE BURN if I haven’t yet read Before We Fall or the other Beautifully Broken books?

Answer:  Yes.  Until We Burn is a prequel to BEFORE WE FALL.  It’s meant to provide a glimpse of Dominic Kinkaide’s bad boy ways prior to the start of BEFORE WE FALL.   It isn’t related at all to IF YOU STAY or IF YOU LEAVE, so you can easily read it if you haven’t read those books yet.

2.  Do I have to read UNTIL WE BURN to make BEFORE WE FALL make sense?

Answer:  No, you do not.  It’s simply an extra.  It’s meant to enhance your reading experience for Before We Fall.  Before We Fall ended up being over 100,000 words long….which is pretty long.  I couldn’t provide a lot about Dominic’s prior life in Before We Fall or it would’ve made the book that much longer.   Since I was impatient for you to meet Dominic, I went ahead and wrote UNTIL WE BURN as a bonus.

3.  Will the chapters for UNTIL WE BURN remain on Wattpad?

Answer:  Yes.  I am releasing UNTIL WE BURN on Amazon and B&N simply because I received a lot of requests for it.  Some readers would rather have the chapters all in one place on their Kindle or Nook.

4. Will UNTIL WE BURN be free on Amazon and B&N?

Answer:  No.  The lowest price we can price it on those sites at this time is $.99 USD.

5.  Will BEFORE WE FALL still release on December 3rd?

Answer:  Absolutely!  UNTIL WE BURN is simply an enhancement to BEFORE WE FALL, no more, no less.  It is an added look at Dominic’s dark and sexy character.


Okay.  I think that about does it.  I hope this clears up any confusion.  :)   Basically, UNTIL WE BURN is meant as a fun little enhancement novel.  An introduction to my baddest bad boy yet.  I hope that you’ll pick it up and give Dom a chance while you’re waiting for BEFORE WE FALL to release on December 3.  Dom is well worth it, I promise.  ;)

Have a great weekend!

IF YOU STAY quotes contest!

5 Aug

Okay, so you guys sent me in some awesome quotes!!  It was so hard to choose, but these are the three quotes up for voting.   I’ll leave these quotes up all day and then tomorrow (on release day morning!) we’ll view the winner!  Woohoo!!  Oh- and the winner will receive a signed ARC of IF YOU LEAVE.

Your choices to vote on are:

1.  Submitted by Alexandra H:

“You have no idea how sorry I am. I’m just not that good at relationships. I haven’t had any practice. But if you stay with me, if you stay… I promise that I will never leave you again. I will never shut you out again. I’ll put in the work and I’ll fix what is broken. I promise.”


2.  Submitted by Paula N:

“You’ve seen me at my worst. Maybe you should see me at my best.”
My words hang between us, heavy and charged, and I don’t know what the fuck I am doing.
“When are you at your best?” she asks hesitantly. And I can see from the determined look on her face that she is trying hard not to feel intimidated. I’m impressed. She’s like a kitten standing up to a lion.
“In bed.”


3.  Submitted by Sandy B:

“Love never fails. But then again, sometimes love has to put boxing gloves on and be tough in order to survive. Sometimes, you have to do the harder thing—the thing where you let someone grow on their own.”


So happy voting!!~  and I’ll see you back here tomorrow to announce the winner and for the release of IF YOU LEAVE!!

Last contest for IF YOU LEAVE

29 Jul

Sooooo. If you haven’t won a signed ARC of IF YOU LEAVE yet, there’s still one more chance!

I love LOVE hearing from readers about which quotes they love from my books.

So, from now until Sunday, send me your favorites quotes from IF YOU STAY (book one in the Beauitfully Broken series).  You can either email it to me (courtneycolewrites@gmail.com) or post it in the comments.  On Monday, August 5th, I’ll post my favorite three submissions– and let you guys vote on your favorite quote.  The winning submission will win my last signed ARC of IF YOU LEAVE.

:)    Hope you have a fabulous Monday!   Ooh- also, stay tuned because I’ll be releasing the last excerpt of IF YOU LEAVE this week!

Excerpt TWO of IF YOU LEAVE and another cool contest!

18 Jul

Okay, guys.   Excerpt TWO of IF YOU LEAVE is up on RT today, along with why it hits close to home with me.    Woot!   You should definitely check it out HERE— it’s from a very intense scene in the book.  You should especially check it out if you were a fan of Mila and Pax in IF YOU STAY.  This scene involves them in a very big way.

Also, I wanted to announce the details of another cool contest I’m running for IF YOU LEAVE.   

I’ve always wanted a really awesome fan-made trailer.  So… I’ll give a signed galley copy of IF YOU LEAVE, a very special copy which will include notes from me scribbled inside, to the best fan-made trailer.  I’ll post my two faves and then readers can vote on their choice.  You can send in your trailers to me at courtneycolewrites@gmail.com any time between now and Saturday, August 3rd.   I’ll post my two favorites on Sunday, August 4th and let you guys vote for 24 hours. The winner will be announced on Monday the 5th.  You can choose either IF YOU STAY or IF YOU LEAVE to feature in your trailer.

Eeepp– this makes me so excited.  I’ve seen some awesome fan made stuff out there– and while I’ve been tagged in some awesome collages and memes for my books- I’ve never gotten a trailer.  I’m super stoked about this.

Anyway.  I hope you guys like the excerpt from today– I’ll release excerpt three next week!


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