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IF YOU STAY is on sale for 99-pennies

25 Jun

Hi there!

So, in celebration of IF YOU LEAVE paperbacks hitting the shelves next month, my publisher has put IF YOU STAY on sale for a short time.  This week, IF YOU STAY will be on sale for $.99.  Woohoooooo!!

Pax Tate is one of my favorite bad boys. He’ll always hold a special place in my heart and if you haven’t met him yet, then now is a great time, since his story is less than a dollar!  :)

Pick up his book, the book that kicked off the Beautifully Broken series now… and gear yourself up, because book four, UNTIL WE FLY (Brand’s book), releases July 7th.  I can’t freaking wait.

Until then, meet Pax Tate. :)

IF YOU STAY,  from GC

 

Twenty-four-year-old Pax Tate is an asshole.

Seriously.

He’s a tattooed, rock-hard bad boy with a tough attitude to match. His mother died when Pax was seven, leaving a hole in his heart filled with an intense guilt that he doesn’t understand. What he does know is that he and his dad were left alone, and they have never been close. Now, he uses drugs and women to cope with the black void in his soul. He pretends that the emptiness isn’t there and this has always worked . . . until he meets Mila.

Sweet, beautiful Mila Hill is the fresh air that Pax has never known in his life. He doesn’t know how to not hurt her-but he quickly realizes that he’d better figure it out because he needs her to breathe. When the memories of his mother’s death resurface to haunt Pax, Mila is there to save him from his overwhelming guilt. Mila restores his broken heart, even as she evokes his powerful, sexual desires. Now for Pax to keep Mila, he needs to work on his issues-and stop being an asshole. But is that enough to make her stay?

You can find it HERE on Amazon.

HERE on Barnes and Noble,

HERE on KOBO,

and HERE on iTunes.

 

Happy Mother’s Day: An interview with Mila from IF YOU STAY (And a winner!)

11 May

So….. it’s Mother’s Day.

I was lying in bed thinking about this last night.  What does Mother’s Day mean?  Is it  day to call your mom, take her to breakfast, give her a card?   Yes.  But it’s more than that.

Being a mother is the hardest job in the world.  I know– I’ve had several different jobs throughout my life, and I’m a mother.  And hands down, being a mom is the hardest.

I’ve got Mila from IF YOU STAY here today to talk about this with me…. about how life changes after you become a parent.   Hi Mila!  Thanks for being here.  And thanks for bringing baby Madelyn!

Mila:  Thank you for having me.  We’re happy to be here.

Me:  OMG– Madelyn is so precious.  Those eyes!  They’re Pax through and through.

Mila (*beams*):  She does look a lot like her daddy. But she’s got my dark hair. :)

Me: Ok.  Let’s see if we can define what makes being a mother so hard.  I was pondering this last night.  Is it the sleepless nights when they’re young, the temper tantrums, the toilet training, the terrible twos, the teen years?  Yes, definitely.  But it’s so much more than that.  There’s a quote that I’ve always remembered because it’s so true. Elizabeth Stone said:  “Making the decision to have a child is momentous. It is decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body.”  

Mila:  Oh geez. Definitely. I never knew how much my very emotions would change once I had the baby.  I mean, the level of intensity that I feel toward her is incredible. It’s like Love, on a whole new level.  You literally feel like you would strangle anyone who hurts your kid with your bare hands.

Me:    Exactly!!  Because all the things I mentioned before are hard… the diapers, the tantrums, teenage moodiness, etc. But what is worse, in my opinion, is not being able to always protect your kid, watching them get hurt and knowing you can’t stop it.  For example, having to let them go to school and sort out a ‘mean girl’ situation.  Letting them figure out how to handle a bully on a playground.  When they get their driver’s license, having to wait for them to call you to let you know that they arrived okay.  Waiting in the living room in the dark when they’re twenty minutes past curfew, because you’re afraid that something terrible has happened.  Holding them tight when their heart gets broken for the first time, because that’s all you can do.  You can’t fix it, you can just be there and listen.  It’s so freaking hard, harder than I ever guessed it would be. It is worrying that some kid will take a gun to school. It is worrying that someone will run a red light.  It is worrying that a harness will come open on a roller coaster (Yes, I actually worry about that.  Not for me, but for my kids).  It’s worrying about rip tides and meningitis and flesh-eating bacteria and child molesters.   I was never a worrier until I became a mother.  Becoming a parent is making the conscious decision to worry about every little thing until the end of time.

MIla:  You took the words out of my mouth.  I was never a worrier either. I’ve always been pretty laid back. But now I understand the phrase “mama bear.”  For real.  Why do you think this is the case?

Me:  *snorts* Why?  I think it’s biological.  I think we were made that way so that we can actually be good mothers.  My daughter turned to me the other day and said, “mom, I know that if I was in danger, you’d be even stronger than dad in that moment, because you’ve got that mom’s instinct to protect me.  I’ve heard mothers have lifted cars off their kids.”  I was like, yeah, that’s about right.

Why?

Because being a mother means forever letting someone own your heart.  My kids own mine in a way that no one else ever can.  There’s nothing I can do about it. It’s irrevocable.  And in my opinion, that gives us superhuman strength when we need it.

Mila:  *Nods*  I agree.   Not just physically, and I’m sure that I would be able to lift a car off of baby Mad if I needed to, but mentally and emotionally, too.  I mean, I know there’s going to come a time when she’s a teenager when I do the hard thing and say no, and she’s going to scream that she hates me and I’ll curl up on my bed and cry.  But I’ll say no anyway, because it’s the right thing for her.  Mom’s have it hard.  But or all the times that it’s hurtful, or worrisome, or hard, there are ten more times where it’s amazing.  And worth it.

Me:  I agree!!  It’s rewarding and wonderful and amazing.  And I’d do it all over again without a second thought.  Except this time, I might have an epidural with all three of my kids, instead of just one.

Mila:  Seriously?  You only had an epidural with one?  What is wrong with you?  Are you crazy?

Me:  Yes.  Moving on…

How has Pax adapted to being a dad?  I know this is Mother’s Day, but I can’t help but ask.

Mila:  *Smiles*  Pax is the best father in the world. Hands down.  This baby has him wrapped around her little finger.  The day she gets married, he’s going to be a blubbering mess.

Me:  I saw that coming.  :)     Okay, one last thing before I let you get on with your Mother’s Day celebrations.   Do you want to announce the winner of our Mother’s Day Care Package?  It will include a signed copy of IF YOU STAY.  

Mila:  *claps*  Ooooh– I hope the winner likes the book.  It’s a personal favorite of mine.

Me:  *rolls eyes*  I think you might be a bit partial.  hehe.  But anyway.  Draw a name from Rafflecopter, would you?

Mila:  It would be my pleasure.  Hold on.  *Shifts baby on lap and pushes a button on my laptop, then peers at the screen over baby Madelyn’s head.*  It looks like the winner is Mandy IReadIndie!

Me:  *claps*  Woohooo!! Mandy, email me your mailing address and I’ll send you out the package this next week.  Everyone, thank you for participating.  I hope everyone has a fabulous Mother’s Day, and that you get to hug your kids, and get spoiled all day long!  :)

Mila:  Me too!!  Have a lot of chocolate, then wine tonight. You deserve it!!

A Mother’s Day gift and giveaway!

5 May

So, Sunday is Mother’s Day!  Yayyyyy!!  The day all of us moms get to recline with our feet up, take bubble baths and drink wine, right?   Well, in a perfect world.

This world isn’t perfect yet, but I want to do my part to help you celebrate.  :)

On Sunday May 11th, I’m going to have Mila from IF YOU STAY on my blog to interview her on what it’s been like to be a mom.  It’s been a while since you’ve heard from her, so I thought you might like it.

Also, I’m going to do a little giveaway.   The Mother’s Day Care Package will include a signed paperback of IF YOU STAY, plus some of my favorite things… just a few things to spoil one lucky mom.

To enter?  All you have to do is post or tweet your favorite quote from any of my Beautifully Broken books (If You Stay, If You Leave or Before We Fall).  If you post it on Facebook, make sure to tag me.  If you tweet it, make sure to include me (@Court_Writes).   Then go to my FACEBOOK PAGE and enter the Rafflectoper.

This contest is open to mothers around the world.  :)

I hope you’re already planning a fabulous Mother’s Day… and I can’t wait to share Mila’s interview with you on Sunday.  Good luck in the contest!  :)

 

IF You STAY hits bookstores! And a contest!

8 Apr

Hey guys!!

It’s finally here… the day that one of my dreams comes true!!  My novel, IF YOU STAY, will hit bookstore shelves!!  Eeeepppp!

IF YOU STAY,  from GC

Yes, IF YOU STAY has already been out in the e-book world for a year.  It has made numerous bestseller lists (NYT, USA TODAY, Amazon…) but until today, it hasn’t been on actual shelves.

But that changes today!!  Eeeeepppp!!  To celebrate, my publisher Forever (Grand Central Publishing) is hosting a contest.

If you see my IF YOU STAY while you’re out and about, snap a picture of it and tweet it with the hashtag #IfYouStay.  You’ll be entered to win an awesome prize pack of books from Forever.  :)

Since I’m in the middle of moving, I would LOVE to see pictures of my books on shelves.  I won’t have the time this week to go out and try to find them– so I would love to see your pictures!

I hope everyone has a fabulous day!

All of Court’s Men: Alex from Confessions of an Alli Cat

17 Mar

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“You know what they say…a happy vagina is a happy woman. Well, they might not say that, but they should.”—Alli

It’s Alli Cat week on All of Court’s Men, featuring Alex Harris!

I have to say… of all of my books aside from IF YOU STAY, Confessions of an Alli Cat is the one that I get the most comments about… the most questions of When is there going to be a sequel!??

Alli Cat is unlike any of my other books.  It’s sexy, funny and light-hearted… not emotional, sexy and angsty.   And while I love me some angst, sometimes, a good light-hearted book is just what the doctor ordered.  And if you’re needing to laugh, Alli Cat can do that for you.

Check out an excerpt: 

I decide against wearing stockings or even panties today.  I can’t believe I’m doing this, but I can’t have anything touching my girl.  I just can’t.  If I weren’t in so much pain, I would feel naughty for going to work sans panties.

As it is, I just feel grumpy. When I get in my car, I carefully arrange Brazilian Baldy so that she’s not rubbing against my seat.  My phone buzzes. It’s Sara.

That’s your vagina talking, not you.  You love me.  You have to.  Because I know all of your secrets.

I sigh.  She has a point.

Fine.  My vagina hates you, I answer.

I don’t even have time to stop and get coffee on the way to work, which definitely doesn’t bode well for my day.

As I breeze past Taylor, I growl, “I need coffee.”

She takes one look at my face and scrambles to her feet, presumably to find me some.  I love that girl.  She knows me so well.  And also, she doesn’t want to put up with me sans caffeine.  I know that much is true because I don’t want to put up with me sans caffeine either.

“Alli,” she calls from behind me, but I ignore her.  I’m so not in the mood for anything right now until I have imbibed at least two cups.

“I’m not in the mood yet,” I call back as I open my office door.

I’m not usually such a bitch, but a raw crotch will do that to a person.

I stalk into my office and stop.

Alex is sitting casually on the couch, his legs propped up while he reads the Wall Street Journal.  I stare.  He glances up. He’s got two cups from a local coffee house sitting next to him.  He is wearing black pinstripe slacks and a white button-up.  He looks fresh and handsome and it’s apparent that he is certainly not suffering from a raw crotch.

And holy shit.  Sara was right.  It definitely depends on who is wearing the button-up as to how boring it is.

This white-button up is not boring at all.  When it is stretched across two strong shoulders like that, how could it be boring?

Alex smiles.

It’s a beautiful smile that makes the corners of his gorgeous eyes crinkle.

“I took a chance and guessed that you like Kona coffee,” he says cheerfully, handing me one of the cups.  “Sugar and cream.  I’m sorry if it’s not right.”

“Bless you,” I say as I grab the cup greedily from his fingers. I restrain myself from gulping it down in two swallows. Instead, I sip it like a lady.  A lady who has been wandering in the desert for two weeks and is ready to die from thirst, that is.

Alex laughs.

“Bad morning?”

I lower the cup.  If I admit it, he might think I can’t handle personal stress after all.  And I can’t tell him about my vag problems.

“Um.  Just busy already,” I tell him.

“Well, I won’t keep you.  I just wanted to tell you that I’ll be sitting in your staff meeting today.  I just want to get a feel for your department.  No big thing.  I just didn’t want you to feel surprised.”

I smile.  I’m feeling gracious now that the caffeine is circulating through my veins.

“It’s fine. I expected that you would join us today and obviously, you are welcome any time.  Is there anything in particular you want us to cover?”

Alex shakes his sexy head.

“No.  Just go on with business as usual. If I have questions, I’ll ask.”

He picks up his paper and takes his leave.  He is barely gone before I buzz for Taylor.  She walks in and I smile pleasantly.

“Is there any reason why you didn’t mention as I walked past you that our new boss was waiting for me in my office?”

She smiles back, like the saucy wench that she is.

“Yes.  You said that you weren’t in the mood for it yet.”

I take four deep breaths and mentally pick up my stapler and throw it at her smiling head.  She smiles wider, as if she knows my thoughts.

“In the future,” I say calmly, still smiling, “Please let me know when Alex Harris is waiting for me, even if I say that I’m not in the mood to hear it.”

She nods cheerfully.  “Will do, boss.  Should I also always tell you if you have lipstick on your teeth?”

I nod back.  “Of course.”

She smiles.  “You do.”

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I’ve had women message me and tell me that they were laughing so hard while reading Alli Cat in bed that their hubbies kicked them out of bed.  haha.  So if you’re in the mood for a laugh, you totally should check Alli Cat out.  And it’s Monday… so what better day for a laugh?

Plus, Confessions of an Alli Cat will be $.99 all week.

You can find it on Amazon and Barnes and Noble.  

Have a good week, everyone!  Stay sexy!  ;)

PS

There WILL be a sequel to Confessions of an Alli Cat.  I just don’t know when that will be.  Hopefully this summer!

When Life Doesn’t Hand you a HEA

28 Feb

Back when I wrote IF YOU STAY, I received a lot of e-mail from readers.

Most of it was amazing and inspiring from readers who had also known addiction, or knew of someone who had.

However, some of it was from disgruntled readers who said that my story wasn’t realistic.  That if someone took drugs to disappear into oblivion, then chances are that they were, in fact, addicted and that I was sending out the wrong message of rainbows and butterflies with my book.

If you read my work, you already know that I’m a big believer in Happily-Ever-Afters.  I mean, people read fiction to escape from reality.  Why in the world would I want to depress them with a book that ended in any way other than happily?

When I wrote IF YOU STAY, that was the reality of my “Pax”.  He wasn’t an addict at that time.

Unlike fiction though, life continues to evolve and change.  A book, after it ends, won’t stray from the final storyline.  That HEA will remain for all of eternity.

Life, however, does change. And sometimes, the changes aren’t for the better.

I’ve always said that I wouldn’t reveal who I based Pax Tate on.  He didn’t want me to, and so I won’t.  I never will.  Readers have guessed that it was my husband, but I can tell you that it is not.  It is someone else that I love, someone very close to me.  

And unfortunately, he has descended into the world of addiction.

At first, like Pax Tate, he was a user, not an addict.  He wanted to disappear into oblivion, into a place where he didn’t care about anything.  He realized what he was doing and I sent him to rehab to be on the safe side.  All seemed to be fine.

But  he started using again and this time, the outcome hasn’t been good.  He’s throughly addicted.  If you follow me on social media, you might have noticed that I haven’t been online a lot.  I’ve been preoccupied with this horrible issue.  When I am online, I usually act normally, because that is my coping mechanism.  I’m a very private person and I don’t tend to advertise my private life.

However, I do have some things that I want to say.

I’m writing this so 1) you know why I’ve been fairly absent online, 2) to address reader concerns that I wasn’t depicting reality with my storyline in IF YOU STAY and 3)  to flip the bird at addiction itself.  

I’m here to tell you that anyone can be an addict.  It doesn’t matter if you’re white, black or purple, if you’re rich, poor, or middle-class.  Addiction knows no discrimination and it knows no bounds.

We live in a world where high schoolers are offered Ecstasy in the hallways for $10 a pill and where they can get heroin as easily as they can get sweet-tarts.  It’s sickening, saddening, and devastating, and it is the reality of our day and age.

However, THIS is our reality too:

The human spirit is created to thrive, to fight and to eventually overcome.  We’re all born with an innate sense to fight to survive, to fight what oppresses us, to come out on top, and to be healthy, happy, and strong.

SO EFF YOU, ADDICTION.

With today’s support networks, groups, medications, doctors and therapies, WE CAN BEAT YOU.  Anyone who is addicted to a substance and wants to fight it, can.  Anyone who wants to fight it can WIN.  All they have to do is set their mind to it, be strong and fight it.

Will it be easy?

Hell no.

Is it worth it?

Hell YES.

All of us, every one of us, deserves to be happy, healthy and strong.

With that in mind, I’d like to ask for your prayer.  I’m a huge believer in prayer, and I believe that the more people who pray for one thing, the better.  The more voices, the better God can hear.  

Can you please say a prayer for my “Pax”?  He desperately needs prayer if he’s going to beat addiction.  He’s strong, but addiction can level the strongest person.  In order to beat it, you have to be strong, determined and have God’s help.

If you can pray for him, for God’s help, I’d be eternally grateful.

In closing, let me just say that the fictional Pax Tate will forever have his Happy Ending. He is happy and strong, and living a perfect life with his wife Mila.

My real-life Pax might be struggling now, in the most difficult struggle of his life, but I have full faith that he will come through it. He will overcome it.  That’s what human beings are designed to do.

No matter how hard or difficult something seems at any one time, always know that a Happily-Ever-After is always possible, whether it is “REALISTIC” or not.  The power to change lies within us, and no one else.

If you are a reader who contacted me about IF YOU STAY not ending in a realistic way, please know that I heard you and I respect your concerns.  I still stand behind my notion that not all users are addicts, but I do fully believe that if a user continues to use, he/she will eventually become addicted.  Just as I believe that addicts can overcome it if they choose to fight.

If you are an addict or struggle with using, or if you know someone who does, please ask for help.  Contact a support group, go to your doctor, tell your parent.  JUST GET HELP.  Please.

And if you’re a drug dealer, whose sole purpose in life is to addict our children to toxic substances for the simple reason that you want to line your pockets with drug money, you can go to hell.

Thank you.

17 Dec

In February, I released a book called IF YOU STAY.

IF YOU STAY,  from GC

I had no expectations for it.  I simply wrote the story that my heart told me to write.

When it hit the top 100 on Amazon, I was shocked.  When it hit the top 10, I screamed. When it hit the top 5, I cried.  When it made the New York Times and USA Today Bestseller’s lists, I didn’t even know what to do.  I was beside myself.  And then, to top it all off, it was picked up by an imprint of Hachette in an amazing deal negotiated by the world’s best agent.  I was assigned an amazing editor at Forever (the imprint of Grand Central/Hachette) and a publicity team.

My whole life changed.  This past year has been a whirlwind- a dream!- and I didn’t think that there was anything left for IF YOU STAY to give me. But I was wrong.

Today, I learned that it made Amazon’s list of top 100 books of 2013.

It made a list of top 100 books for the WHOLE YEAR on Amazon.  The. Whole. Year.

 

I’m just….speechless.  And I’m a writer, so that doesn’t happen often.

Thank you, thank you, for reading and loving IF YOU STAY.  Thank you for being with me on this amazing journey.  You will never ever know how much I appreciate you.

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