OMGeeeeeee you guys! If You Stay releases in six days!! I can’t wait– I’m so excited for Pax to be set loose on the world. But it’s not time quite yet. So, to pacify myself, I’m going to release the last excerpt that you will see prior to release date. Yayy!
This excerpt is from Mila’s point of view and she’s talking to Pax.
“I don’t know why I’m here,” he admits softly, and his voice is so close to my neck. “Because I can’t stop thinking about you, I guess. And because I’ll never get that horrified expression on your face out of my head. I’m sorry to have put it there. Just know that she doesn’t mean anything to me. She was persistent and I didn’t say no. It was a habit. I’m sorry.”
My heart hammers hard in my chest. I don’t know what to say. I know that I should tell him to get far away from me, but my heart is a traitor and wants him here. My heart must have issues. But I can’t say that.
“You don’t even know me,” I tell him instead, finally turning around to look at him, pulling my hand away as I do. I stare up into his hazel eyes and find an expression there that I haven’t yet seen. Trepidation. “Why would you apologize to someone that you barely even know? You don’t owe me anything.”
He shrugs and his movement stirs his masculine scent. I inhale it and fight the urge to close my eyes so that I can better enjoy the smell.
“I don’t know. All I know is that ever since I met you, I’ve wanted to know you. That’s why I’ve been coming into town this week to see you. Something about you makes me think that I can be better, maybe even get my shit straight. I haven’t felt that way in a very long time. And I feel like I do owe you something.”
Hell. His words strike a chord in me and I swallow hard. His tone is hesitant, soft. And it melts my heart. I can’t help it. Sometimes, there is such a broken look in his eyes. And deep down, I just want to fix it.
“Why?” I ask, my gaze firmly locked with his. He shakes his head.
“I don’t know. You just seem so good, so wholesome. It draws me to you. I can’t explain it.”
I laugh now, thoroughly amused.
I gesture toward my painting. “Does that seem good and wholesome to you?”
We both study the angry black and gray canvas. It looks like something that someone in a Psych ward might have painted. Pax finally smiles.
“Well, then, Red, it looks like you’ve got a dark side. But the difference between you and me is that you channel yours in a healthy way. I don’t.”
I stare at him, trying to decide what to say, how honest to be. But this moment seems like a good time for honesty, so I don’t hesitate.
“I don’t know if it’s all that healthy that I’m attracted to you,” I admit finally. “I’ve never been attracted to a bad boy before.”
He is so close to me that his proximity is a bit intoxicating. I feel almost dizzy from it as I stare up at him, waiting for his response. It also seems as though I can feel the danger emanating from him…it’s charged, electrical, fascinating.
Pax thinks on it for a moment, his jaw covered in day-old stubble.
“Well, I’ve never wanted to be good before, so I guess it’s a first for both of us.”
Okay! There you have it! The last excerpt of IF YOU STAY before it releases. I hope you liked it– and that you will like the book. Eeeppp! I’m getting more excited every day. Also, don’t forget to send me your pictures of Pax for my Find Your Pax contest if you’d like a chance to win my last signed ARC. You can find the details of the contest here.
Have an awesome Wednesday!